Dedication
seems to be this very common word and event. As a person started this journey
to follow Jesus whole hearty for more than a decade, dedication became a very
common word, after getting married in the pastor’s family this word became much
more common, as my father-in-law almost practice this every day of his work.
Now this season of my life, gives me different prospect of this word
dedication, we are planning to dedicate our little Nesia to Jesus Christ. Ever
since this date is confirmed, I have been pondering about this word dedication,
also all the things I have dedicated.
When
I first received Christ, I dedicated my life to him, ever since all I did with
my life was to live for myself, other than few honest prayers for others, and
minimal support to poor’s (out of guilty and abundance) nothing much. Even
before, starting my career I dedicated my career, hardly I remember my God
while at work. Other than throwing one or two bible verses in my class (in the
hope that would touch some of my students) nothing much at all. Well before,
even I knew my husband, I dedicated my marriage to God, ok this is a big joke,
really a joke. How much I have humiliated my faith boldly, even in front of unbelievers.
Other than us both attending church, and using some spiritual slogans to point each
other’s fault, not much of our marriage is dedicated to him.
Yes our car, house, even laptop which is not
“dedicated”? Car is used to take us to church, house is used to pray, and laptops
is used to listen bible (very few chapters every day). Is this what dedication
means? Please don’t mistaken me, I am not going through this guilt trip, but
really examining the things I dedicated. I know I still have hope, I could
rededicate and use all this things in a right way to its fullest, Even if I didn’t
do it, I want to do this dedication right, yes I want to really dedicate my
daughter to Him. At least until she is under my care, actually I want to dedicate
myself to do every single thing that will make her into what HE INTENDED HER TO
BE. I DON’T WANT TO FAIL IN THIS DEDICATION. I don’t want this to be JUST
ANOTHER DEDICATION.
Dedicated
means having single minded loyalty, have no other purpose but just that.
Doesn’t mean I am not going to do anything else, In the role as a mother this
is my purpose, to do all that to pour her into the mold that is created for
her, by her Maker that is the priority of my motherhood journey. I know every
single step will be a battle, battle with my selfishness, battle with my
daughter’s sinfulness, battle with the enemy who will do everything to make me
take this dedication lightly. But, I am pledging to myself, pledging to my
daughter, on top of all this I am pledging to my savior (who is faithful), this
is not JUST another dedication.
